Separated, Served...still have FAITH!

[somuch2learn]

jaguilar:

I'm a newcomer, and your recent posts have moved me very deeply. You obviously have a lot on your plate, and I can't imagine what it must be like for you.

I just got a copy of DB, and I'm making notes on 3x5 cards to try and keep my strength up throughout the day. My WAW told me 4 weeks ago that she wants a D, & she refuses to attend counseling. I've got no proof, but I'm sure that she is in an EA or PA. It's so frustrating because she was the one who wanted to rush into our marriage, and now she sees no point in even trying to save the M. We have been M for less than 2 years, & we have no kids. No drug/alcohol abuse, physical abuse, gambling, or financial problems. However, since she left me, she drinks 3-4 times a week (to get drunk) and hangs out in bars & nightclubs.

My question to you, is how do you keep going? Where do you find the strength & motivation to keep trying? There is so much information in DB to understand & implement. But when I wake up at 3 a.m., I just can't believe this is happening. How can you stick the 180 rules when the temptation to call or email is overwhelming?

I expect my W to retain a L in the next few weeks, and I just can't bring myself to go the same. It is very admirable how you are able to keep the faith after you have endured so much. How do you keep using DB, and keep believing in its principles during such a trying and stressful time?

Your situation & how you are reacting to it is very inspiring.
Somuch2learn