Thanks Jeff for pointing me back to my own thread. I`m learning all the time in this DB game-getting the hang of these boards is part of it!
Well, its up again, down again, up again in this game, as you know all too well. I hit a low yesterday but today I`m back on form again.
My challenge for the day was to attend a party on my own. It was a gathering at a friend`s house to celebrate her daughter`s First Holy Communion-so lots of kids, couples(grrrr!)family relatives of the girl in attendance. And I was going alone.
I wasn`t looking forward to it and I know it`s something I have to get used to. and that`s where my DBing efforts paid off.
I`m looking better. Clothes, hair, make up all good.So that immediately sets off a wave of compliments. Or at the very least, some positive attention.
And I`ve learnt to be calm. Such a great lesson! Although I enjoy social interaction, I can get quite tense. But all the mediations, calming exercises, and especially my realising that I am fine and all is well in my world have given me an extra kick of confidence that`s made all the difference.
So I really really enjoyed my evening. Getting a positive response from other people(and none of the company this evening know my sitch)reminds me that hey, I`m okay.
So, I can keep on DBing for another day!
Really thinking of going to a counsellor too, though. Just to take pressure of my sis and one gf who`ve been over loaded with my crap, and to give me a perspective on my journey. Thanks for your insight on that one, Jeff.
Must do the on-line survey thingy too though. Will strongly consider anti ds this coming winter.I`ve everything else sorted except for companionship and physical affection so I think I`ll get some anti-loneliness and anti-libido pills while I`m at it!
Oh, and I have my own thread! I never thought of it like that! So this is where I can come update, vent and hey, maybe even announce our M is back on track! Right? That would be great as it`ll help me track progress too.
