MLC Maybe?

[Jerri]

Weekends are bad for me as this was when I spent the most time with my H. So thoughts just start whirling around in my head.

It's only been three months since he left and I'm seeing an attorney on Tuesday but I am just so torn on what to do. I haven't seen him at all since mid-March, the only contact we have is either through e-mail to text and mostly it's me asking him where the financial support is. He has become such a mean, nasty person, I don't know who he is anymore. All of my children are pushing me to walk away, file for divorce and move-on.

Part of me thinks I should do that - I cannot understand and I don't like the person he now is. But I keep thinking that the real "him" is in their somewhere and how can I give up so easily?
I so don't want my marriage to end but I feel that he's determined to end it.

I know I have to protect myself financially, he's been looking at boats, planes, corvettes. He's practically living with OW - commuting three hours one way just to get there. I just don't know if there is any hope at all.

I might see him next Saturday - our daughter will be in a rowing competition in Philly. I know he's planning on going (he doesn't know that I'm going). I don't even know how to act if I even see him. Ignore him? Be remote but vaguely friendly?

I just don't know what to do.