WAW1 - Anticipation

[markhaving probs]

My wife has just dropped off S7 to me. She has got another overnight bag with her, she is all dressed up and had lots of perfume on and was made up. I cannot believe this is for one of her 'girlfriends' evenings out, especially at 5.30pm in the afternoon. I even noticed the underwear she was wearing which was not 'everyday wear'.

I know JCJ said I should not jump to conclusions but without full blown proof it just seems so likely she is off to the OM again tonight. I know I should drop the rope regarding her but when I see her I just get so frustrated and angry. It hurts so much, the only good thing is we are communicating better, but it is still very hard. I know I have to reduce negativity and conflict, but I do not want her to get to the indifference level Coach says because anger proves there is still something there, and I feel with every meeting she has with OM it pushes her further away. she also stated she was turning her phone off as she only has two bars on her phone, what no charger?, therefore we cannot contact her. Yet another sign she does not want to be contacted. I feel like she is taking me for a fool and I do not like it. I did not rise to, or ask anything. Is she trying to push my buttons, or is she so ambivulent to our situation ie. I have accepted the situation, therefore she can just continue with this whatever it is.

This is so hard.