You obviously want to save your Marriage or else you wouldn't be here.....unless you are posting here as a place to vent.
The damage the WAS does can be pretty intense and painful.
And for some it is very hard to move forward.
Many told me how foolish I was to give my Husband a 2nd chance. I was told that he didn't deserve my forgiveness and that I should move on with my life and let him go.
As I said before, just because you forgive him doesn't mean that you have to stay Married to him.
People who can't forgive end up miserable and bitter, especially after a Divorce. I would hate to see that happen to you.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.