Hi T.. yes, I often said here that I feel sorry for her, and I do. I feel sad that he stayed with her so long that it got to the point she felt she loved him. It wasnt fair on her.. and it isnt nice to be dumped hey.. but then, it will free her up to be with someone who does love her. And exBF doesnt and never will.
Feel sad today.. maybe I AM going to win him back afterall (?), but at what cost? I havent done so well in my degree because of it and some friendships have been a bit strained, but not beyond repair I hope. It has bought me closer to others though, especially my famlly and I guess I have really grown alot.
This from Realastrologers.com: "Saturn will move into Libra at the end of October this year, so consider this a heads up about what is in store for the collective. Between Pluto in conventional Capricorn and Saturn in Libra, I’m willing to say fidelity, commitment, and learning what constitutes a good marriage will start to make a comeback."
Your situation sounds so promising. I hope this works out for you. We are all cheering for you.....
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
I always read along, I love the moves bf is making. They are only positive. I also thinnk T's idea is so gracious - wow. I have always admired your attitiude to Helen. Keep being your funny, great self and hopefully there should be no problems, he won't be able to resist
Thankyou Trusting, Julia. Perhaps its different for me though Julia, my ex didnt have an A and then leave me.. he didnt get together with her until the year after we S (but I dont doubt he fancied her before the bomb!). So I guess, its not her fault, she just got caught up in his mess. I am sure I would be less gracious about it if they had had an A!
I did say May though didnt I! Back at Christmas, when it wasnt looking at all hopeful and my ex was away skiing with his girlfriend. Looks like to be coming true, so... I might have the last laugh hey.
Your welcome Mish! I'm ont sure I explained it very well, but I honestly would never have believed I could feel relatively normal again, and wow it feels wonderful ! I hope you find an answer to it...
I just want it to be June so I see if I was right! (I said to my Mum at Christmas, I wouldnt know which way it was going until May and if we got back together, it wouldnt be until June!)
No reply to my text earlier. Its no big deal, just the usual two steps forwards, one step back.
Hmm.. badly. Slowly. Like wading through concrete. Which is how I have felt for the past 18+ months..
I'm trying to play sound files of the pitch of certain planets, down a trombone. As you do!
He still didnt reply to my text of yesterday, eventhough I asked him a question about the ipod he lent me, so thats disappointing. The trouble is, I get used to the increased contact and expect it to continue.
I feel angry today, thats a rare one for me. I feel fed up, resentful, lonely and tired of being alone. I was just thinking I dont feel as though I have made the most of living in Cornwall so far, the first 6 months was hard and rained alot and then the past nearly two years has hardly been a bed of roses.
I cant believe its been nearly 2 years. Not one year, which would be bad enough, no, two. Despite that though, I think of Thursday.. something had shifted, the way he was following me around, looking worried when men spoke to me, the way he would brush my arm or touch my shoulder when he spoke to me, the things he was saying about how terribly he missed me, how he wanted to phone me, how he held me, arms circling my waist, fingers in my back, leaning his cheek on mine. I wish I could see a photo of us as we are holding each other talking.. what it looked like, as it sure feels amazing.
So now it would seem that you are back to patience! I think it is one of the hardest things to have to "do" but it will help a lot of us reach our goals. Everything can't happen with a snap of the fingers or a drop of a hat.
I do understand really. You have put so much of yourself in already, why do you have to wait some more? You yourself say May/June so you know that you have a bit of time. Make good use and work on your art. You are doing a wonderful job.
hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
