This is a transition. My brother encourages me. I'm in a much better place because of his advice, along with the support of my sister, family and friends.
Initially I spent a lot of time clinging to my beliefs. Accepting ex's reality created my own. Wailing and gnashing my teeth is over.. thank goodness. My past with ex I no longer understand, but that's okay. With time will come perspective. Now is the time for action. Although I love my home, looking forward to my own home is wonderful. Clearing out all the stuff in this house clears my thinking. Getting rid of the debt, being able to rebuild financially is motivating.
I don't need to hold onto possessions to keep what is dear. Fear is ebbing.
And I'm not missing out on anything by not dating while going through this. My plate is full enough. The energy needs to be directed on the here and now, to build a solid foundation for me and the kids. To be in a good place. All this work is so healing and even.. exciting!
Thanks for being here for me, being my friends. Love, good wishes and warm fuzzies to you.
