W texted normal good morning but was earlier than usual (right when she woke up) i returned it.
Brought D home and contiuned to work on her playground.
W texted me and asked me a couple of questions about verfying her enrolment for MGIB. answered her questions and that was all i heard from her. She was supposed to go to her brothers for nieces Bday i guess she decided not to. Not much else today feeling better and better about everything each day. I thank everyone for your advice and support everyone has been very helpful. Will post tomorrow have a good weekend all.
I ask D if she wants to talk to mommie she says no, I ask again she still says no.
Me: ok she doesnt want to talk right now too busy playing with friends
W: ok
Me: ok ill talk to you later
2 mins later I get a text....
W: What u hate me now or something?
Me: no not at all
End of conversation
I was very nice on the phone with my tone of voice and i was in the middle of something which i told her at the begining of the conversation... Hope this stuff is working...
Our Sps thoughts are alien under the best of conditions, but when they are in WAS mode, they are completely Lovecraftian. Madness is the result: look no further than their actions for proof of that.
Better to detach, GAL, and focus on what needs to be done in your own life than to dwell on them. I just wish I could say that without being a hypocrite.
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W: (Brother has to go to L.A. this week for a doc visit. His left side of his body went numb the other day after some chest pains.
Me: is he ok?
W: Dont know yet. Hes fine right now, but the fact it happened and the hospital here said it was nothing is why thier going to LA
Me: are you ok?
W: I dont know
Me:we are praying that whatever it is he will be ok and they will find it if there is something wrong
W: thank u
Me: I'm sure he is going to be ok LA is a big place with lots of good doctors. (Brother) is to good of a person to have anything bad happen to him. (was trying to be optimistic)
W: bad things happen to good ppl all the time (ironic..)
W: But thank u so much for the support
I wanted to TALK to her soooo bad i wanted to tell her i loved her and that i would always be here but resisted dont know if i should have i know she is scared for her brother and i know she was trying to lean on me to make her feel better....
im staring to think i should have been more willing to give my W more last night during the convo about her brother kinda feel like i was a little heartless
