I didn't wait 2 hours, but it was over an hour before I responded to her (is there a 2 hour rule?). I have had a couple of really strong days now and I didn't feel overly anxious to respond instantly.
It may be the anger phase or something, but I am feeling a little different about the situation. By that I mean that the feeling of desperation is not nearly as intense as it has been. I am actually having feelings of pushing away and carrying on. I question to myself if I would ever be able to truly let go of what has happened and move forward. I don't know the answer to that and I guess that only time will tell.
My closest friends are noticing that I am doing much better. They have all told me that I seem to be doing much better. Starting to joke around again, laughing and having some fun. I am glad that they told me this out of the blue as it has boosted my ego.
This is where I stand tonight, I am sure in a few minutes my thoughts and feelings will change again. I am just thankful to have these higher moments.
M 30 WAW 29 T 15 M 5 ILYBNILWY 3/8/09 Separated 3/14/09
