(((T))) Thank you I guess it really makes me see that people show love in different ways and I really like that I was able to thank him properly, understanding that. For me, love is quality time, which is why it is so hard not to see him. I am learning to appreciate his sentiment and give him space. I am too scared to get excited at this point, although I went into the office on Friday after having been away at a conference on Thursday and seeing the gift made me smile and feel fuzzy.
(((Ms M))) You are right that positives are coming from seeming negatives - as in your sitch too. In his emails etc he keeps saying how pleased he is that everything is moving with the house and I am acting 'as if' back. In fact it helps me to stay positive by acting as if. I am realising how important my home is to me, how carefully I look after my things but also realising that he does not value the same things as me. To be honest, as long as we value each other (which I know we are capable of doing) that is the most important thing.
(((Mishka))) Thanks for checking in on me
Today a colleague from work came and took my sofa. It is a big heavy thing and it is a relief it is gone as I wasn't sure how I was going to get rid of it. However it does mean I'll have limited seating till I move. I have taken really good care of that sofa and it was like new and when they were loading it in the van and dragging it across the floor it was silently killing me - especially when they ripped it!!!!!!!! I just kept repeating 'it's not longer mine, it isn't my responsibility' and that made me laugh about it.
BTW just as an aside... my neighbours are so weird!!! They are really nosey and I avoid going out when they are there. They ask me personal questions about h etc and I always feel watched when I go out the house. I finally plucked up the courage to mow my front lawn knowing I was going to have to have some kind of conversation. I got on with mowing my lawn and turned round and their granddaughter was sitting on a chair about 3 feet away from me just watching me. When my friend came to get the chair she said it was like something out of a horror movie! So strange at least I didn't have to talk! lol!
With regards to h, he said last week that we need to meet to sign some solicitor stuff and I left it that he should let me know when. I am staying dark just for the moment and seeing what happens next week. It is unlikely he will contact me over the bank holiday weekend.
I guess it really makes me see that people show love in different ways and I really like that I was able to thank him properly, understanding that. For me, love is quality time, which is why it is so hard not to see him. I am learning to appreciate his sentiment and give him space. I am too scared to get excited at this point, although I went into the office on Friday after having been away at a conference on Thursday and seeing the gift made me smile and feel fuzzy.
