I must relate something that came up when I picked up my S's today (beginning my week of custody). S8 was telling me about OM and how he an his mother were doing so well catching fish, and how they are kayaking so much together. (I am not asking for any of this, S8 is bubbling over with this information, and I in fact would rather the subject not have been brought up. I get a queazy feeling in my stomach to hear this stuff.)
In his discourse, S8 mentioned a particular lake that he says that xW has frequented, which is one that I myself have never seen much less visited -- it happens to be quite near to where OM's property is. S8 says that xW and OM now frequent that lake quite a lot now, which given the above is not surprising.
But S8 said that his mother took our family dog out to this lake several times, and even took pictures, supposedly. What floored me was that S8 said that the dog xW took out to said lake was not Duncan but Angus. I had to get clarification from S8 on this very important point -- he confirmed that it was Angus and not his son Duncan that xW had carried out to that lake. Duncan was the dog who had been with us through our separation and divided household. Angus, on the other hand, died about nine months before S8 was ever born. Angus was my dog long before I ever got involved with xW, who adopted her when we got married and who lived with right up until our first child was conceived.
What this means, if true, is that my xW had been frequenting OM's local lake for over nine years and she had been taking my very own dog out with her without ever telling me she was doing so -- or, more importantly, with whom.
This leads me to speculate that xW has been chummy with OM for far, far longer than she would ever care to admit, and particularly to the point of concealing from me the details of her activities. And that she would be taking my dog, my long-time companion with her is just more insult to injury.
I honestly am now questioning whether my so-called W was ever faithful to me. I am now feeling like everything about her has been a lie and a cheap facade. And it would explain why she has for so very long held so very little respect for me -- all this time I've been nothing but a trusting fool and a cuckold to her. And the whole time she tried to hold this sense of moral superiority over me -- just more lies that I fell for.
