Lastly, she always asks me, like 20 times now, "I know you are doing things differently now, and see things differently, but if you really loved me, why did you not see them before. Why did it take so long for you to realize you hurt me so bad?" How the heck am I to answer this?!?! Obviously I did not know how bad I was, or more importantly how much it was hurting her. (VERY little communication) And obviously I see it now, and want it to change, but can't put them into words.
How about this..."I don't know, but I am sorry it took this! Our current predicament forced me to look at myself and I was not happy with what I saw."
Or..."I did love you enough before but I did not have the tools to show you in the ways that were most desirable for you. I'm a smart man and can learn and grow and love better. I am committed to growing and becoming the best man I can."
I gleaned both of these off of this board!
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
