Well Simon what can I say, but say something I must otherwise you will have had the last word
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neither up nor down
hmmmmmm must make certain things in life difficult. I had no idea that an identity crisis could have such far reaching affects.
my night was nothing compared to Ali,s but I will say I just had 2 glasses of red! too much for someone of my advanced years. Haven't seen any togas' yet tho!
Hi OD! I know, I've been MIA. You are so much better than me with this.
Quick update on me: No news w/ H and me, still separated, living in our own apartments and we act like really good friends, but neither of us have mentioned D. I went to his place last night with the purpose of talking to him about it, but just...couldn't. Anyway, I've been dating, lots of fun. Recently promoted...two level jump, so that was great. Just got back from a long weekend in Jamaica and then heading to Amsterdam to visit a good friend in May!
I feel like you must have the BEST self control w/ CEO. I think I would've just jumped him by now! LOL!
So glad to know you are doing well!!! <3
H & I, both 32, together since 18. *M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08 * Agreed to D 6/09...very hard *D 8/10 * At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF
Hello! Glad you've been having fun. Crowbars indeed
Beth- cool about the dating- have you met anyone nice? Have a fab time in Amsterdam- if I'd known you were going to be there I might have hopped over for a coffee. I know what you mean about bringing D up being hard- I find it tricky every time I have to mention it to H and it always comes out a bit bluntly. Still, I guess that's not as bad as having an A and leaving the M! Has H stopped seeing the Horse now?
So, my update from this week (last week?). CEO and I have moved office. We did it last Sunday and he was great about it. It's different in the new office- I'm in a quiet corner (I think I've posted that before) and it's a bit isolated compared to the old place which had all the hot guys from across the corridor popping in all the time. I'm sure I'll get used to it though. The office manager and a couple of the guys in the new office seem friendly enough but it's really quiet compared to the old place and I miss that.
We had a big meeting with a potential collaborator on Tuesday and that went well. We have a term sheet in on one of our projects so that's very exciting. The day it came in he spent the whole day singing me this: Nothing's gonna stop us now (I've just watched the video- so funny with all those 80s hairstyles!) It was really funny hearing him sing it too. I told him he was the second funniest man I ever met.
Anyway, before and after the big meeting we had a bit of an argument. First he was a bit rude to me and I didn't like that. He apologised and that was OK. Later on I thought he was being a bit aggressive in general I guess (I can't really remember why I was upset) but I got really annoyed with him and almost walked out of the room. The interesting thing, though, was that he reacted emotionally to it and went into his cave over lunch and afterwards even though we were eating with a collaborator. I apologised after lunch and he said that he thought we could argue with each other and still be OK. I liked that.
Anyway, we're getting on well. He's been speaking to me about some things that affect his career and asking my opinion on them, and he always looks so happy to see me/hear from me. Sweet, lovely, hot. I've decided that I'm going to give him a taste of his own medicine by periodically flirting very strongly and then being completely professional by turns. So far it seems to be working. Firting technique number 1 was to stand next to him at the traffic lights and as I was joking with him lean my whole body against the side of him briefly. It must have really confused him because instead of going off alone to get his afternoon fruit (!) he just followed me back to the office and I had to remind him to go and get it. Mwahahahaha!
I met H for dinner yesterday. It was a bit last minute as I was supposed to be having a drink with Julia but we postponed and H sent me an e-mail a couple of hours later. It was good fun to begin with - we were laughing and he was being lovely, attentive, listening, asking me questions. He told me a lot about his work and career options (I guess this is something no-one else in his life would really understand and I think he appreciated my listening). He'd got a voucher for dinner and planned the evening which is something I've told him before that I like. *sigh* I had to tell him I'd filed the D papers and he looked really upset. So I asked him what was wrong and he didn't say anything, just kept looking upset. I said that if he couldn't tell me I didn't know who he could tell and he looked more upset. I said I only did it because I thought it was what he wanted and he said 'I suppose'. And then I asked if he was happy and he said 'I suppose..... I just want you to be happy' and wouldn't say anything else.
Everything about it says he doesn't really want the D, or was at the least shocked I'd actually done it. I told him that if I had any inkling that he didn't want the D I would never pursue it, and that I just want him to be happy and left it at that. He said 'I know'.
Anyway, after that we talked a little more (for those who might be wondering he is still with the vegetable) and headed back to the tube. He gave me a big hug when we said goodbye and we exchanged some texts on the way home saying what a nice evening it was. This morning we also exchanged a couple of e-mails. I expect we'll see each other next Wednesday- there's a work networking thing and we arranged to go and watch the football afterwards.
I felt a bit sad about the D conversation this morning. Clearly he has issues that he doesn't feel he can discuss with me, or perhaps it's just guilt. I wonder if he'll ever realise that leaving someone because you felt so terribly guilty for hurting them and still wanting them to be happy so much that it makes you cry 2 years later is a sign of love. Anyway, it's just sad considering how well we still get on, but life goes on.
Lovely weather today- I had the day off and went for lunch with my GF, and then spent the afternoon sitting in the sun in her garden. CEO and I spoke mid afternoon and he was doing the same thing in his garden and we had a sweet conversation which ended with quite a long goodbye (for a boss and employee anyway) and him saying in a soft and plaintive voice that he'd see me on Tuesday. Must be missing me already, poor thing.
Oh, the weedy guy asked me out again- not sure how to get rid of him as I was pretty clear the first time I turned him down. But as if the universe was somehow compensating we had a temporary musical director at choir this week who was quite hot. Shame he was only in for one week!
And that's about it for now. Thank goodness because this post is massive! Sorry all (and thanks anyone who read it all!)
I read it... Are we ever ready to divorce a person we care about? Not sure anymore. But not doing anything against it is making a choice, isnt it? xxx missed you K
A LOT of hot men out there. Maybe that's where I should be heading...
BTW, I love the fact you had to remind him to go get his lunch or whatever it was... Good job as always!!!
otherwise you will have had the last word 
