I really want to call H tonight or at least txt to say hi. I feel like its been so long since we even spoke. I stuck with my quick short answers on tuesday(texting) and have heard nothing yet. I know its far to early to expect anything yet so I'm trying not too. Just really missing him tonight.
We have no excuses to see each other(besides house/bills stuff but really I can take care of it all) We have no kids to keep us seeing each other and no family stuff happening. What others have said is to stay strong and leave it for now, but it just feels like he is slipping away more and more now.
I don't really think the bill that came this week is worth contacting to discuss because I think we would decide that I should pay even if we discussed it. And I don't feel like the fact that his mail is piling up is a good enough reason to contact either. So I haven't.
he just feels so far away. How can I ever show the work I've been doing on me when I never see him. I think the only thing he may notice is that I am not contacting him. And am worried he may just think I have accepted things and am moving on.
Me-27 H-28 M-2.5 yrs T-8.5 yrs No kids B 1/09 S 2/09
