I had a good day today. Fun and easy. Just what I needed. H called once and sounded... super friendly and warm. I kept it short and polite.
FIB, my H is NOT at home with me because we both thought that it wouldnt be such a good idea for the kids while still trying to see if things could work out between us. He is NOT out of MLC lala land and yes I think he did have/has an MLC although I never posted to that forum. I dont think he has an on going affair but he has told me he is still in some contact with the woman I believe he had the affair with.
MY ISSUE is that I dont feel anything from him. I dont feel loved, cared for, I dont see remorse or any efforts to come closer to me. I think he has not changed at all and always and still looks for the easy way out. And that bothers me a lot. Where we have been, there is NO easy way out from. He cant do the work. Whether it's by choice or whether he is incapable of it, I dont know. The fact remains that 7 months later, we are still angry with each other and havent "connected" at all.
I dont know how to end it. I am having a hard time with it. Dont know why. K
