Boy I am sorry antlers that had to be a very hard phone-call to take. Based on what you have posted before I think you know what the answer is. You need to find a way to keep going. you need to continue to make yourself a better person. You need to live up to your own standards. And what will happen with her will happen.
I feel for you. To paraphrase you, hopefully the pain will make us all better people.
It was. Had a sleepless night last night because of it. No, I really don't know what the answer is...other than to continue to work on myself and become the best man I can, and to love my kids and try to improve our relationships. I know I gotta keep going regardless. It's hard to not only hear these things, but to accept them as fact...that's difficult! I kept hoping for a miracle...and in some ways I still do. But I don't want to be impeded by hanging on to a false hope. I really do see, feel, and think differently about things now...and it is an improvement for sure. But it doesn't matter at all to her.
I'm 48. I feel so alone in the world.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
