Ok, so it's official, I am hopeless. I just can't get this DB thing down. I feel like it is way too hard for me... been doing well all week until today. I gave in and called H. I saw on the caller ID that he called me yesterday morning so this morning I called back. Funny thing is that when I saw that he called I had planned on not calling him back. And then today I am here sitting at my desk and every so often the feeling of missing him comes over me. For the most part I'm good at not giving in to it, but sometimes, I just can't help it. And today I was defeated and I called. It was even worse that I first called him block # and then I heard his voice. I hanged up and then called back again. gosh, I have not done the block # thing at all during the S since I knew H would think it is me, We had a good conversation though... short but good. But I always feel like a fool when I call him... I want him running after me not me running after him when he was the one to do me wrong. Does this ever get easier? It has been 7 months already since we have been separated.
