I am still here and I need some HELP

[whitneypinch]

Well, things have taken yet another turn.
I pushed on my ex to go out again and she panicked. She wanted to make sure we were only going to go out as friends and that there were no expectations. I will tell you that one person can only take so much.
I told her that we could still be friends but that I thought that we should only go out if she initiated it. The truth is I really should have never initiated any of this. My DB coach pointed that out.

So I am in limbo land. Ex would go out again and is friendly, but it's too painful to be around her and see that she does not care in the way I do.

We have 2 little kids that are both hurting. I just don't get why my ex does not want to explore anything between us. But like most on this board, we will never get it.

Since we have 2 kids I can't seem to get away from all of this. I think I really have to "try" to detach and only respond to her contact. I have tried this in the past but don't seem to have the strength to pull it off. She sucks me back in every time I try.