Thanks KJ. I know everyone here is trying to do nothing but help me. I do get out and do things but when I am at home my mind runs amuck, so to speak. I just cant grasp how a man or woman that has been married so long and has a family can just take off one day and decide he loves someone else. And then of all things, after 2 or 3 months of knowing them want to get married. But then I think, my xh only new me 6 months and he told me the first night he met me he was gonna marry me. It seems to be a pattern with him. What hurts the most, and this is killing me inside, is the fact he doesnt want to even think I exist. He told me the only thing from the last 20 years that he wants to exist is his son. That HURTS! I have to find a way to get past the hurt from that. I have to find a way to realize this man doesnt even remember me. It's one thing to leave a family but its another to pretend they are dead. In your honest opinion, why in the worl does he want to pretend like I dont exist. I know I keep asking this. I'm sorry.
