Twink you seem so TOGETHER, and in just 5 months that is amazing! I wish I was a stronger person. Let me say to you and everyone else here that this problem I have runs far deeper than any relationship I had with my h. I have always been the type of person that worries, worries, worries. I watched my mother do this I suppose and took her lead. I had one true love in high school that I thought would last forever (my first). Well he joined the army and goodbye Renee. I pretty much only dating him except for a few. My friends were always prettier than I, I thought. When we would go out, they always got asked to dance and so forth. I by no means so overweight back then and I had an outgoing personality, but when it came to guys I shyed up. After high school, I went out a few times and then met a guy who I thought I would marry. I held onto him for dear life, I thought he would end up leaving me and he did. We talked about marriage and all but he decided after a couple years of so, I wasnt for him. BROKE MY HEART. I dated some after that but nothing serious again. At age 22 I was starting to worry that I would NEVER be married. At AGE 22!! So my problems had already begun by the time I met my h. One night 20 years ago I met him. He told me (not asked), told me he was gonna marry me. He was drinking, so I overlooked him. The next day he called me and more of the same. He said he fell in love at first sight. I thought he was crazy that night. I, nevertheless, fell in love with him. I was scared to death at first, because I didnt think he was for real. Since then, I hung on to him with everything in me. My life revolved around him. So when he left me, my life left also. Back to worrying about being alone the rest of my life. See what I mean?
