WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 8

[MrBond]

"That's when I'm talking to her (either in person or on a call) and all I'm saying is "Oh" or "OK" and not much after that."

There's nothing wrong with saying "oh" or "ok" when you have nothing else to say. The thing is that now she's trying to control what you say. If you have nothing to say, you have nothing to say. You don't have to apologize for it. Don't even think about it going dim/dark. You shouldn't have to start monitoring every word that comes out of your mouth when talking to her. Don't worry, it's perfectly natural and part of the paranoia we feel when dealing with our WASs. I still have times when I worry that if I say the wrong thing, my W will go running out the door again. Paranoia is what it is.

"I think I understand the balance is don't be accessible 100% of the time (DIM/Dark), but when I do see her, make sure I portray the "Integrated Man" and try to go back to DIM/Dark as quickly as possible"

Exactly! But don't keep thinking it's your last shot. That's what's been hampering your efforts from day one. The time clock that you put on this is making you anxious. Remember it takes AT LEAST one month for every year together approx. IF both you and W work hard at it. Since you're nowhere near that point yet, you have to stop thinking about the June deadline. Things can be postponed or cancelled.

Keep that in mind.