What I meant by the ball being in your court was b/c of your W calling and bringing up all that stuff again. As if she was trying to get you to talk about the R. Why would she be doing that if she has filed for the D? What is the purpose in doing that if you think you are going to be served with papers any day? So, it just made me wonder if she really went through with it.
Anyway, in my opinion, you seem to be kind of on the fense rail and trying to decide which way to fall. You sound as if you really don't know what you want any more. That is why I said I felt like she has thrown the ball to you to see if you are going to talk to her about the R or just ignore her and let the D go through. Just my thoughts.
Take care, Sandi
I was at the house last weekend cause I usually go there on weekends to spend the weekend with my son. She was at her sisters but came back on Sunday evening. And thats when she asked about all that stuff. So she didnt' call me, but I guess she still brought it up. But I did ask why I haven't been served, and she said that she didnt' feel good about a sheriff coming to serve me. So she was going to do it herself and showed me the papers. I asked if she really wanted me to take them and go to a lawyer right now. And she didn't really say much. But it's partly cause I have told her repeatedly that if she really wants this to be amicable for the sake of our son, then I can't do that right now. And I need time to get there, and if she forces the D on me right now, it will definetly not be amicable. So she hasn't really said anything about her actually serving me and me having to answer the petition right now.
I guess it can be looked at like on the fence cause sometimes I feel that I can't take this anymore, but then the next day, I feel like I can't give up yet. This happens every weekend when I see my son. I feel heartbroken about it when I see him and he tells me how he missed me. I honestly think he thinks or at least is hoping this is temporary. It kills me know that he feels this way and my W doesn't want to even try.
But I'm actually feeling pretty down right now. My car just broke down and I had to have my dad come and pick me up. I think I feel down cause my first reflex was to call my W, and tell her what happened and have her pick me up. It's just another reminder of what I don't have now, and how lonely I have been feeling.
