Spoke to my IC today about everything that transpired over the weekend. She said I seemed "strong but vulnerable" in what I had written to W. She also cautioned me against that - saying that based on everything I've told her about the relationship, W is toxic to me and that I'm reacting "normally" as someone who deals with a Borderline does. She says the thing I have going for me is my logic/rational center is able to override my emotional side and I'm making decisions that go against what I'm feeling - but which are the correct decisions - such as protecting myself legally.
To that end - I'm also doing quite well at the DB stuff. But it won't matter. IC tells me that a relationship with a Borderline is like a drug. She told me to keep that mental image because it is important. She did say that the BPD individuals she's dealt with can get better, but it is long-term and the therapy is extremely intense.
She said the percentage chance is pretty low of things being able to work out. It is Christian-based counseling, but after everything I've told her - she has started using some quite non-Christian language to describe what I'm being put through.
I told her my date of June 1 I'm giving to see positive traction. She told me she'd advise May 1... so I'm guessing I should consider some things.
"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."
