not to insult you G, but now I see how you are acting like x when he was having an A with then-ow and just couldnt' stay away, they broke it off, went back on, off, on, she was toxic and mentally imbalanced but he just couldnt' stay away or bare with the thought she would hate him. It costed him/me our M.
He felt so bad for what he had done (the lies) that he thought he owed her (and boy she made him feel that way too, even asked for money as "penance" for all his lies!). It was just awful because he didnt' man up to tell her good bye for good nor could tell her he wasn't D. He didnt' want to look bad so he strung her along for MONTHS in an effort to: spare her feelings... making her heartbreak even bigger when the truth came out and she talked to me.
As our then MC told me, it was a fatal attraction. He ended it with her with more lies so it would seem like it was her fault and not his, and sure enough he hated himself for that too.
So honey, it won't be pretty, he wont' be happy, but think long term, he will get over it and move on just like you will... with time.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
