This just feels so damn confusing. On the one hand I feel like I have made progress. While she told me she once hated me and was full of anger it all seems to have gone away. Where before she would storm out of the room, now she seems to want to hang out. But, and this is a big but, SHE IS DATING ANOTHER GUY. She's been dating this guy for a month. He's 50. She's 33.
She said she wanted to throw a going away party before we moved out of our house. The two of us, hosting a going away party. I told her I would have to think about whether or not I wanted to be a part of a party like that.
Anyway I am going away this weekend to a party. I think it may light a spark of jealousy. She said she wanted to walk the dog and then bring him back to our house tonight. I have to consider how to play it.
everyone tells me to give up. After all she has a boyfriend now. But I don't want to. I can't just yet.
