Kalni....DB...but don't let life slip by. I agree with Kerry's last post on your thread. I DO need to be careful that I don't turn into the 'scorned husband' and spit forth doom and gloom to everyone else. It's just a terrible thing tho', when, we are stuck out of fear and get played for the 'cheeseless tunnel' stuff here...where the cheese is THERE and is LIMBURGER. Clearly, any spouse that is still in the house, is NOT abusive and vindictive and is NOT cheating....deserves time to straighten out and/or see your changes.
To mindblank...W was wearing VS short shorts in the house with Ug boots in the mornings. Didn't want my son to see her crack or my daughter to keep seeing the tattoo. Drew a line...she is now wearing sweats.
I asst coach my son's baseball team and I am the head coach for girl's lacrosse, K thru 2. After playing 13 years of head crushing lacrosse, it was a challenge to 'tone it down' and learn to coach little girl's. I'm having fun...especially since my D5 is on the team.
OK...the new book I am reading is No Nore Mr. Nice Guy (it's not what it sounds like). I am always trying to do things to come up smelling nicer after all this is done.
Yes...it appears that my divorce won't be over until some time in fall. Figure the next court meeting is now June 9th and we haven't even started talking custody issues yet since my financial appraisal isn't done.
As most can see...my posts have slowed up. I keep off the PC at home for privacy reasons and typing on a Blackberry is a pain. Tuesday mornings are my catch up day. I imagine that pretty soon I will wind things down here. There is too much pain. I stay to try and help others still and offer some clarity that I now have. DB kept my sanity thru the worst parts of this but also kept me from filing when I should have. I don't regret that per se, just some of my behavior that enabled her...and not drawing boundaries earlier (like that would have stopped her anyway).
Ironic how I used to look forward to the key turning in the door...the garage door coming up....etc. Now....I dread to turn the corner and see her car parked in the driveway. Today, I was sorting thru some old cell phone messages. I saved some of my son where he still sounds like a baby. I also have 2-3 of XXX...talking to me normally, kindly, laughing...like I was...her....husband.
Soon...I will delete these from my phone.
Strength and honor. FIB
Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11) Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10 Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;
