You can't answer those questions on why they hurt us over and over because we are not dealing with rational, logical, sensitive people. If they were we wouldn't be in this situation in the first place. They would be men of integrity and still be married and putting thier families first. They don't know how to process what they have done so its easier to villanize you to justify thier bad choices. He knows you have done nothing to deserve this and that thought is too much to bear and lay on his shoulders to he has to fake it like you did something.
Me: 46 FWS: 36 Married and Divorced 4/07, Pregnant 7/07,False R 7/07 Baby Girl born 3/08 Kicked him out because OW: 7/08 5/10 He realized what he had and lost. Moved home! REMARRIED 3/14/11!!