For some reason my thoughts are racing this morning. I really want to pick up the phone and give her a call. Today makes two weeks since we have spoke and it is wearing on me.
When I am having these down moments, I have a difficult time stepping back and thinking about me. I keep wondering what she is thinking or planning about us. I wonder what will come of us and then I have that sinking feeling that she will refuse to try for our marriage. Not healthy thoughts, I know. It is just hard to clear them from my mind. Letting go isn't easy.
On the bright side, last night was a good night. I went to the gym with a friend and then we went and had a light dinner at a place on the bay. It was nice to get out around other people and I do notice that it lifts my spirits greatly.
M 30 WAW 29 T 15 M 5 ILYBNILWY 3/8/09 Separated 3/14/09
