ammo, its ok to write posts that are as long as you want. Journaling here is very cathartic.
You and I have a lot of traits in common (including the separation from our Ws). It doesn't sounds like you have a lot of 'spare' time, but let me recommend a book for you No more Mr. Nice Guy. It was an eye-opener for me and it sounds like it might be for you, too.
Keep up the DB efforts.
Me40 WAW37 M18 T20 S18,14 D13 EA Bomb 6/08 Sep 11/20/08 Ret 08/09 Sep/Filed 11/09