Newcomer, want to keep my hope alive!

[iwantittowork]

Thanks for the comments pearlharbr, I used some of your suggestions..

Day 3:
For my day 3 action plans, I called a new counselor, got setup for next week appt to talk, he sounds like a possible good fit.

I also setup a trip to a Drag Racing event with 6 friends for June, I have not been to one in over 15 years, but love Drag Racing, so doing something I used to love with a group of friends, although it's a ways off on the schedule still

The counselor we had been seeing actually called me today, so I took the opportunity to discuss the last couple of days with her, and that I didn't feel I was getting what I needed from her, and no longer wanted to come in. She accepted that, and then we discussed how to address this with my W, and counselor wanted to call W herself and discuss. I allowed her to do that, not sure if it was a good thing or not, but that is no longer an issue.

I talked to another stranger today, in line at the cafe, and another interesting story unfolded, she is from Holland, moved here to our office recently to work in our office. It was just a brief pleasant conversation, but again, I felt great afterward.

Went out to dinner with my old friends, and had a good time reminiscing about our old work places together.

I ended the night on a bad note however, on my way home, I was just perplexed in these changes I seem to be feeling, and when I got home, I just started talking to the W about all the things that have happened the last couple days, and made the mistake of then telling her I didn't feel we were through yet.

Dumb, dumb, dumb, I can see today, that this info on me is NOT for her, its for ME only. I need to be stronger on my own, and keep to myself things like this.

So, this morning, I am not feeling as good as the last couple days, but need to refocus again, re-read some stories on DB, and put more plans on paper and in action.