You posted that those who are doing well aren't on the boards. Consider taking a break and putting the energy and good fellowship you have on this site to work for your own personal development. You've mentioned you have another site where you complain. Give this time to yourself.
You are loved and adored but your situation hasn't changed much. Successful people don't work harder, they work smarter.
Me? Sometimes I get very motivated by myself. When I feel overwhelmed I'm great when I have someone by my side helping me. I have to work on keeping the momentum going, asking for help when needed. Do it for yourself.