Holding onto Hope

[In Limbo]

It's amazing how you can blow it without even realizing what you've done. H asked my opinion on shirt and tie to wear tonight (what the heck?!?). Anyway, I started to take them into brighter light, then stopped and said "well, you'll be in the dark, so this light is ok to check it in." That set him off and he was so pissed he didn't even say goodbye when he left. It's so hard to know if what I said really was out of line or if it's just his own guilt getting to him. Either way, now I feel like tonight with OW will be a relief b/c it's so easy for them to be with OW with no responsibilities, etc. I want to confront him about all of his lies so much. Guess I'd better write it all down today and get it out before he comes home. How can I outshine when it seems everything I do is an irritant to him now? How on earth do people do this for YEARS?!?