did the mistake of discussing situation with wife at D handoff - she said she is over me, hates me for all ive done to her (disappointment, lonliness), would never see me again on this earth if it wasnt for D. I know micheles teachings are wise, and have even shown them to W to shed light on the problem. i just think that there comes a time, as it might be for innishannon, when you say - this is it, its over
