Thanks for the support. Right now painting is not so much art for me, it's more about survival and making money. I know that after a while, when I try new things, the creative part in me will be satisfied also (which is better than having no parts satisfied ).
I think I would feel so much better if I had some more money per month. I know I shouldnt complain but it bothers me alot not to be able to feel secure and although H gives me money, my house is actually running on half than what it used to. He doesnt get it. I've talked to him about it and he basically agrees but since he NEVER had any idea about money (he didnt even know how much his monthly salaries were, I did), he THINKS I am OK... He is in lala land in more ways than one and that's why I dont trust him for the future. He will make me ask for anything the kids will need and I am too proud for that.
I talked to someone today. He said the state gives money to create sites to promote e-commerce (we are just getting started here with that). I could make a really nice site and then get 50% back from the state. But I would have to be legal and start paying pension as a shop owner on top of the pension I pay as an employee. And that is so messed up here to start a business etc etc I have to really think about it.
Anyway, Sara, I feel better when our contact is minimum. He is not good for me. He brings me down.
Jeff, hibernating... Hmmm, isnt it spring now? Soemone should be waking up soon
fb2, yes, I was being sarcastic. Never seen you post so srict before. Yes, I know, I have high highs and really low lows. What can I say, it's the way I am wired. K
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