Thanks again DQ. Moving on with being a better me. I was making it on my own before him and I will make it on my own again. Sadly he is the one who has never been able to make it on his own. You are right. They both have no idea the hurt they are going to feel when they realize that they really have nothing in common and they lost a wife and a best friend over their selfishness. He says he gave me chances, but I asked him how fair is that when I have no idea I am being given chances. I explained that I did not understand what he meant and that even he had given me so many different reasons as to why he was so depressed all the time. I loved him with all I had. I really did. It just wasn't according to the language he needed. Funny thing is, most of this started because he stopped speaking my love language early on in our relationship. I cried and pleaded then telling him that I didn't feel loved. It never got better, but I just got to the point where I just went on. I believe the resentment probably started then and it as well as my illness played a huge role in it. It's like we all say though, we can't fix anything that we aren't aware of and when we are finally made aware of it. They have already moved on in their minds. I'll move on. I'll love again. I will be a better me! Thanks again!
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
