Well i just had a pretty bad backslide...had a crappy day because of going to the bank about the house the W text me and told me about her day I told her about mine her reply was "Im Sorry" (about the house) Basically i was feeling trapped here in Illinois.
Anyway we got into a big argument and she told me that basically she feels like she still has to be my mother thru this seperation due to me struggling. Which is totally the opposite of how i want her to feel. But then I realized that basically it is due to me feeling sorry for myself and just kinda going thru the motions of DBing not really acting on anything just sitting in my house feeling lonely. She told me i needed to get an activity. So yeah basically ive backslid completely. I know, I know you can all stop the applause at how awesome i am.
Anyway now I realize that if she can see that im struggling I really do need to make a change and start actually DBing. Starting with GAL!!!! And going back to NC
I work the next 3 days 14hrs, so this may be kinda difficult but i can still get a plan in order.
I also have 1 other recognition....I am like alot of others out there although I keep telling myself Im ready for the battle, I really am not.
Anyways i really need any and all advice I can get. Please Latch onto me and I will try to provide any support I can. I really need any support you are willing to give, even a smack upside the head when needed.....Thanks
