Wow.. so J called me (oldest BMF wife), I double checked with her, but although he hasnt said a word to me, apparently this is what my ex actually said to her (and he is completely honest with her)..
- That he is IN LOVE WITH ME
- That I am his soulmate
- That he can see me and him living back in our house again (the one I readvertised for renting today. WOW, thats huge, at the bomb he said we would NEVER live there again)
- Helen is not the reason I left Al (but me and J said, he just cant admit she was a part of it, if not the reason.. he was probably flattered and if he was unhappy with me/the R, it was a temptation at least)
So pretty stunned.. and feeling like I should more confident when I see him tommorow night!
Ok, off to bed for some beauty sleep.. and.. my trombones arrived today!!!!!! in a huge box.
I am the proud owner of three trombones.. all for £16 ! Good ole ebay. They are so nice I cant bear to saw them up, so I will have to change the design to hide them inside, they're so lovely ! (bit battered and tarnished all the same)
Hi Walkingback.. I dont know, I dont know if I will ever know the answer to that. Maybe it will come out in time. I do know he didnt have an A and nothing happened with her until August 08 (10 months after he left me) and I saw an email on his PC Oct 07, when he was out in the garden, 2 weeks before he left me, from her and it was purely formal and not even like they were friends. BUT, as me and J said, I believe he was flattered by her attentions on him.. although at least I had it confirmed what I intuitively felt.. that he doesnt and never did, love her. Which is very important to me and I am very glad he didnt.
Phew! So other than that, I thikn I'm going to have to 'let it go'.. if we get back together we will have to (in true CBT/DB style) just move forwards from this point and largely, draw a line under it, for now. Later, much later, when he is recommitted to me and its 'safe' I am sure we will have some comversations about it and he will want to explain and assuage his guilt over his actions of the past 2 years. But, I can wait.
Hi T ! Nice to see you back, thanks for cheering me on. Not out of the woods yet though ! x
Hi MsM, I sgree. J was saying last night, that you will probably never know and you will have to let it go.
Hey K.. did you read Priya??? I too was looking at the astrology of May also in December, seeing what was going to happen in May. Although Mercury is about to go backwards again, so more delays.
----------- Mercury enters Gemini today and is slowing down to a halt as it gets ready to station retrograde next week in the first degree of the sign, on May 6, 2009.
The days surrounding Mercury's retrograde are generally when information tends to 'surface' and with Mercury in his home sign, we can expect things to get rather communicative. We are also leading up to a powerful Venus Pluto square over the weekend so watch the intensity. Sometimes it's not what you say, but how you say it that makes all the difference.
The Moon is in late Cancer and enters Leo at around 8PM EST in New York today and overnight and Friday in UK and Australia. Things should get a lot more dramatic over the next couple of days, as the Moon will also trine Venus and Mars in Aries.
Given the astrology, we can surely expect a few passionate conversations and a burst of creative, perhaps sexual energy release if we make just a little effort and take that risk.
It's a cool Thursday morning here in New York, I'm writing May horoscopes today in disbelief that we’re here at this point of the year already. I was looking at this astrology in December and it's funny how things all play out never quite what you imagine but always perfectly aligned with the energies at work above.
We are going through some of the most exciting astrology over the coming month. But with Mercury retrograde in Taurus we are going to have our patience hats on. Remember all good things are worth the wait...
.. so seeing him tonight at Band night! HIS invitation, again.. Exciting !!!
Ali, did he call again only you posted this yesterday
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he didnt so much invite me as said, I suppose you will be going.. suppose I will see you there? But then the people on the leaving do are coming along to bandnight!
NOw you post
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so seeing him tonight at Band night! HIS invitation, again.. Exciting !!!
did I miss something? maybe you posted on fB. Enjoy the night anyway,I am sure you will. I confess to still being confused about astrology reflecting what is happening as opposed to giving guidence to future events, but I still read my horoscope daily, ever hopeful. Wear your boots it is raining cats and dogs here
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