Holding onto Hope

[In Limbo]

Lies, lies and more lies. So much for the "wake up call" H had. Now he's at home, but going out tomorrow night with OW and lying about it. I have DBd my butt off and had thought this might be our chance. But he's still as screwed up as he was before the DUI and I'm a fool for thinking otherwise. I thought I'd been doing so much for myself, but I was fooling myself there too. Too much has still been about H. What a fool I am. I don't want him to leave, but I don't think I can live with the lies and pretending "as if." How do so many of you do this for so long? How do you finally get to the point where "as if" really isn't so fake?