Feeling more like im having up and down hours rather than up and down days. Was feeling good earlier today. I started reading DR got to the section about W shutting the door compeletly and about the diehard, Impossible people that are hard to change thier minds, needing a miracle to having LRT to work. Made me feel horrible. I see my W as woman very full of pride and very hard headed and she seem very firm in her decision she gave me on friday. I cant believe i'm actually afraid to think of the future thats not the type of person i am. I'm praying this ends sooner than later.
