I love you guys. You make it sound so incredibly easy. I wish it were. I have so much blame here. We've tried to cut off contact a couple of times and I got scared and pretty much sold my soul and begged another chance. Now that he gave it me a second, third, forth, try - crap, whose counting, if I cut lose now, he'll absolutely hate my guts. I swear, I feel as though I've played a game with him and I really don't have a lot of respect for myself right now. I knew I didn't want to be with him long ago, but I hung in there because it was easier. I have to end this, and as much as this is going to sound stupid, I'm in so far, I really don't know how to end it without him hating me, which is something I really don't want.
