MHP, Reading over your 180s could it be your Ws LLS are AOS and WOA? If so learn to address those issues to connect with your W.
To help yourself when you feel overwhelmed make a list of things you are grateful for. Remember this is not permanent and you are loved. My mantra became "I can handle it." Strength and Honor.
Cheers
Coach


M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.