Hi Jeff! I will post one on FB as soon as I have bought the bits, figured out how to make it and built it, lol !! Its going to be great ! Um, I hope. Anyone know how to dye flowers though??
Well its 9.20pm and he hasnt phoned yet !! (usually does around 9 on a Tuesday, because he has football). I have worked myself into such a lather of nervousness, I almost wish he wouldnt call now. Funny hey. After 17 months apart (?) and 350 emails, countless nights out, texts, phonecalls.. why now of all times am I so nervous?? I think because I can sense we are nearing the end and it feels as though we are on a knife edge, which side is the butter going to fall !?
Wow.. so my arm and ear are aching.. we were on the phone for an hour and 40 minutes!!! Thats a record ! He twice said, see you Thursday.. he didnt so much invite me as said, I suppose you will be going.. suppose I will see you there? But then the people on the leaving do are coming along to bandnight!
He sounded pretty down for much of the convo, but perked up and laughed a bit for the last third. He yawned alot and his energy was pretty down beat.. but I made sure to ask questions and show interest in things he is doing (as alot of this friends are the kind of chatty, outgoing people that are "on transmit, not receive".)
We had a really nice varied chat. He is bringing his ipod for me to borrow for my sculpture so thats great and I got his advice on how to drill a hole in glass and he seemed keen to help. But, sometimes he says things and I can hear its like excuses he may use to her, hard to explain but he has become 'practised' in avoiding meetings/trouble with her I think and eventhough its subtle, I pick up on it. Not sure how I feel about it really, he sounds a little strange to me nowadays. But then, its always harder on the phone.
I told him our tenants gave notice on our 'marital' house back home and he said he was VERY relieved when I said I could advertise it tommorow and we should be able to relet it quickly, he said "Oh I hope so, I really hope so, that would be brilliant"... so.. um..bearing in mind we've been split up 18 months (?) and its in joint names, he still doesnt seem to want to sell and split those assets!!?? Good!
Well was it worth waiting for? Sounds like overall it was a good conversation. Now if you could just make those flowers red!! lol You may just have to buy the ones that are the right color from the get go.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Hi Kat...yes in fact it WAS a lovely chat, I made it sound much worse than it was. Very chatty, some laughs, a sort of real convo really (apart from the whole.. he has been dating someone else for 7 months but never mentioned her name and only ever alluded to her three times, each as "there is something else in my life" or "there is someone else going" or "things have happened" and thats about it!). Anyway.. it was a very positive, normal convo and we had quite a deep discussion for 20 mins about human survival instincts and mental strength (wierd but there you go).
I had to get up and write/sketch some ideas, as I just had another genius idea. They arrive whole, an image of a finished thing in my head, its wierd, I can only describe it as visions. Dont know whats going on !
I actually felt a bit cross at him earlier, like, so you can happily chat to me for an hour and 40 minutes and you want to see me Thursday and lend me yuor IPod, but...I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE!!!!
I'd be more mad about that, if it wasnt the 'norm' and par for the course for these MLCers.
Hey K.. I knew he would call, but he didnt until ...after the football had finished !!! (grr).
Advertised our house..does he not realise how odd that is, that he was RELIEVED that I wanted to relet it? This weekend is a BIG weekend, Venus conjuncts Mars square Pluto 2nd/3rd May exact, its the next date in that Venus-Pluto pattern he has been under since April 2007.. wonder if he will end it with her??
So, yes, he called Tuesday again and seeing him Thursday again, is this becoming a pattern?? I worked out that he never saw her Tuesday nights (football) or Thursday nights (his night out with MFs) so I feel a bit annoyed, he is STILL in his regular pattern and fits me in between, when she would have NFC. I always said, he is SUCH a creature of habit its a wonder he ever managed to leave me! Hates change.
I suppose I have done well to NOT mention Helen, or compound his guilt and shame...but I DO want to ask him about her, IF he comes back. I'm getting fed up that he is being so slow and cowardly about her.
I also texted J, oldest BMF wife, to ask her I NEED A PEP TALK from her, before I see him tommorow night. So she said she would phone me after work today.. yippee !
