Slowly but surely - detach and 180

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Things are calm. I have been very positive and upbeat whenever I saw her over the last week. On Saturday we did a garage sale at the house she is living at because the whole neighbor hood had one. She came over friday night and picked up a couch and bed to take over for me. She was a bit grumpy and tired and I stayed happy and positive. On Saturday I brought her a starbucks in the morning (6am). She was nice all day and even asked me to go around to the other garage sales with her in the late morning. We joked around a bit and had a pretty good day.

I have also not contacted her at all. Letting her contact me. She has called me pretty much every day with something about the kids. She also has e-mailed every day. I think that is mostly just kid coordination stuff and not her wanting to talk to me. I don't think she is anywhere close to the missing me stage. I think she misses the kids a lot but not me. She has been very good about being flexible with the kids also which has been a blessing.

So I have had a few bad days but even during those I am able to keep myself focused on the goal. Reminding myself that it will take a LOT of time and I need go on with my life in the mean time and work on myself and become the best person I can be. make every interaction positive in the mean time. It is hard going a few days without seeing her at all. I still always wish she would call or txt me. Gotta detach better on that one. also still think about her all the time. There are periods during the day that I don't think about her but not long I snap back to thinking about her. There aren't a lot of things that are distracting enough to keep me from thinking about her. Reading, watching movies, listening to audio books, even at work when I am working on a project or something that should be taking my whole focus I will go back and forth. So that is my biggest challenge to going on with my life is getting her out of my head.