Having a horrible, horrible day. One of those teary times when you feel hopeless and can't stop crying. I miss my H so much. I felt that I was letting him cake-eat too much, so I pulled back. Had no contact at all for a week (the longest since he left) and had limited, business-like contact via email yesterday. He seems much colder and I'm terrified. Actually, he tried to "chat with me yesterday on gmail, but I wasn't at my computer - sounded friendly. After that, he was much more curt. I wonder if my not being in touch (he had an important job interview last week and I didn't inquire about it) is making him feel like I just don't care anymore. It's a fine line - not allowing him to have his cake and eat it too, while still being there at some level. One of our problems was that he always felt that he came second, so I feel that I have to be careful about not reinforcing that. But he's still staying with the OW every weekend and I can't go too far. Any words of advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.
