Thanks Karen. It doesn't bother me that much generally. I just put on a smiling face and pretend. It's not so hard. What bothers me more is not what my girlfriends think but what my H thinks. I miss him so much still. I miss my best friend, my companion and my partner. That side is what REALLY gets to me. But GAL'ing very well so far. Keeping extremely busy with lots of work and volunteering stuff. Makes me happy to help others and also be with kids. I tell them how much I love them all the time. I think they really feel it.
H sent me an e-mail regarding his travel schedule. I didn't reply. It didn't need a reply. After our last convo abt our possible move, I think it's better if he thinks that I am not hanging on his every word but detaching. I hope I am subconsciously reminding him that I am not going to be here forever.
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
