Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

been missing my x lately. i wish i could talk to him, like i would a friend that i have missed..just tell him how much i miss him. wish i could tell him that i miss his humor, his smile and our friendship. i wish i could look in his eyes - but i can't.

that part of all of this is probably the hardest right now. letting go. i thought today of death - and how similar this is. he has to be dead to me. no "going back" to what we had. it truly has to be forward life motion.

this whole process this is a continual cycle of change. about the time you heal over one part, you begin to grieve another part.

i wish i could write him a letter and just let him know... but i can't.