Appears OW was at the weekend party with H. Of course, I can't control that or what our friends/his friends/etc. think about the sitch. But, I have to admit tonight that I'm feeling a little sorry for myself.
I wish I was missed. Wish H would somehow acknowledge my existence other than to gather account #s, etc. from for the bills. He called Sat. and I keep re-thinking his tone, questions, etc. So stupid. All he said was "hi" and "how's it going". I wish he'd contact me to see how I'm doing. He's still so cold and disconnected.
And I know I contributed to this with my questions, judgments and pressure. What I'd give for a chance to REALLY apologize and try to give it another chance.
Pretty worried I'm not going to get that chance, especially when he doesn't contact me at all. My former BF would have checked in. This guy just doesn't seem to care.
