sorry about the delay in posting; I just wanted to say how much I appreciate all of your advice, and timee; it means a lot to me.
I have been struggling yesterday and starting to feel a loy of hurt and anger. It must be the impending court hearing tomorrow.
I am supposed to be talking with H today about the possibility of revoking the hearing tomorrow.
I have been so torn, feeling that this is not moral, to put either of us through this.
But last night I got an extremely cool letter from his solicitor. My H is playing tough with this, will see me in court with bells on and intends to fight.
My h has left me, quite simply, emotionally and physically devastated. The last few months have been a living hell. He is now looking less guilty and sheepish, especially around my mother, who is incidentally going back to Oz next Wednesday.
He is so cold and indifferent......no obvious hate or hurt just completely over me, he is in a new life with a new woman and he has left me behind picking p the pieces of my life and my heart with no concern or remorse. I truly do not know wht has happened to the man I married, he is gone, as has my marriage as I knew it.
And it is this very man, this stranger whom I feel has the capability of continuing to destroy my heart directly by coming back freely into the marital home knowing that he has left and is living with another woman. It is this as much as any isolated incidences that are the reason why I feel the safety order is warranted.
I have lost so much with this man, his family where I live (no form of contact from any of them whatsoever), my sense of my life and my stability, my trust not only in men but also in fairness and kindness towards others.
I feel at a loss to understand how a man who claims to love you then pulls everything away, so cruelly, with no looking back.
I am in grief and it is now in the angry stage..........i deserve so much more......yes i have made mistakes but i am a good person, a faithful person.
would love your ideas, especially about court tomorrow, at this moment i feel as if i should go ahead.......
