Hi Renee,I am sitting here and catching up with your posts ...and as I read I am crying, because I know how you feel...I have no contact with my husband...he doesnt even ask about me when he and our daughter talk... couldnt care less whether I am alive or dead.....and that really hurts deep in my heart and my soul...but they all say the same thing in here over and over... we can not change them... but WE can change ourselves.... Depend on God for his grace and mercy.....I have been having a really rough week this week. Dont know why, but I have cried myself to sleep every night.. I pray and I pray and then I pray some more and it seems no one is hearing me...but I know that one day all this pain will be over and I will look back on it and think to myself... why did I do this, shed millions of tears as so many have in here and still do...I love my husband sooo much it hurts.
All I can do is take an hour at a time.. the length that we have been in this journey is nothing compared to the others who have been in here for years, LOTS OF THEM STILL PRAY EVERYDAY. all I want is for all of us in here is to have peace in our hearts and with ourselves.... I want to thank Y/R, BND,JACK...just reading what you post in here has helped me alot.... Still praying wishing and hoping. That one morning I will wake up and know that I truly made it, for me and my daughter... God bless you...
