S, I wish a lot of things too. I wish my life could be the way I planned. I wish my h wasnt having an affair. I wish my son wasnt hurting. But you know what? Wishing doesnt make it so.
So, its ok to wish things were different. Its ok to wish that your h could be in your life. But dont let the wishing stop you from your living your life.
Maybe someday your h could be in your life. No one really knows. But, I could promise you this, he will not want to be if you continue on the road that you are on. He will not see that you are moving forward unless you REALLY are moving forward. Not trying to, not hoping to, not doing it so he notices. But really and truly taking control of your life without thinking about him in it.
You can do it. Stop thinking about him and her for an hour, then two, then a day. Keep yourself really busy. Then you'll see, you wont have thought about him for a week, then two. I promise you, it will get better and easier. But you have to help yourself. Come on. DO IT.
